I wish i could see the sun disappear in to the ocean.
It’s been years since I last smelled the salty sea.
It’s been months since I’ve seen a clear sky of stars.
I may have been spending my days waiting
for the Moon, ever since I let go of that Sun.
Goodbye, beautiful you are, as you fade…
The moon is not the one that does the chasing,
as it surrounds itself with stars.
I used to feel like I didn’t have the courage to charge head-first in to something risky. Let alone for things outside the world I’m comfortable with. During the past few weeks, I have found solace in the comfort of friends and family. I have ‘met’ friends I have known for quite awhile now but have never seen their faces. I have found that the important things in life for me have been neglected for so long.
The self can be selfless sometimes… that is the unhealthy part of relationships. You give and you give and you give some more. You let go of things that have been with you for so long just to avoid an argument. It left me empty and alone, but it gave me the chance to start over.
I found myself talking to a mirror and I realized that it is finally time to move on. Life is beautiful. It used to be like the sky. I know it’s there and it’s beautiful but I never gave myself the chance to step out and enjoy it. Not this time. I’m taking my life back and I am no longer afraid to take risks.
The past may have done a good number on me and it had instilled a deep fear on things unknown. Everything has risks involved. You have the risk of betrayal from new friends. YOu have the risk of failure from new business ventures.
I will begin my journey now. Headlong, in a world of calculated risks and lesser evils. I am no longer put off by the thought that things will be hard… or will take too long. I can wait, but it will not stand in the way of my happiness.
I read the other entries here and it really made me think:
Life really is beautiful. Keep moving.