I was wondering how everything would feel like… if things should go the way they are supposed to go. Or be what they are supposed to be. Where everything stays in their place. No fine lines to ‘accidentally’ cross. No words expected. No needs to fulfill in both the monetary, nutritionary and carnal sense. I wonder what would happen if I kept giving in to wanderlust… to my whims? Where everything comes naturally. Nothing forced or coerced… I sit down here and I keep wondering how things keep going about, with a million why’s and what if’s. For things unexplainable, we explain to how we might want to view things. We want to touch and grasp our dreams our own way. I don’t want to step on anyone and I just want to live harmoniously with everyone I can. I want to help. I want to be better. I want to live. I want to breathe. I want to sing like there is no one listening. I want to dance like no one is watching. I want to speak without fear. I want to love like I have never loved before. I want to believe in a love I didn’t previously believe in. Someday. Sometime soon. While I write down my ramblings on this little notebook; while I type away as I transfer to notepad. While I proof-read this for mumsy’s sake. While I paste it here in this little text box. Even just for a little while. Just a pinch might do.
I want to be true to myself. Kahit konti lang. Sana mapagbigyan…