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I am an up and coming Daddy!

aoiyeux — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 13:37:28 +0000

Rambling… Tempted

aoiyeux — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 19:38:49 +0000

I was wondering how everything would feel like… if things should go the way they are supposed to go. Or be what they are supposed to be. Where everything stays in their place. No fine lines to ‘accidentally’ cross. No words expected. No needs to fulfill in both the monetary, nutritionary and carnal sense. I wonder what would happen if I kept giving in to wanderlust… to my whims? Where everything comes naturally. Nothing forced or coerced… I sit down here and I keep wondering how things keep going about, with a million why’s and what if’s. For things unexplainable, we explain to how we might want to view things. We want to touch and grasp our dreams our own way. I don’t want to step on anyone and I just want to live harmoniously with everyone I can. I want to help. I want to be better. I want to live. I want to breathe. I want to sing like there is no one listening. I want to dance like no one is watching. I want to speak without fear. I want to love like I have never loved before. I want to believe in a love I didn’t previously believe in. Someday. Sometime soon. While I write down my ramblings on this little notebook; while I type away as I transfer to notepad. While I proof-read this for mumsy’s sake. While I paste it here in this little text box. Even just for a little while. Just a pinch might do.

I want to be true to myself. Kahit konti lang. Sana mapagbigyan…

Adventures over the past two weeks.

aoiyeux — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 04:18:40 +0000

Last week:

I bought a new phone. It was a 5310 China Music Express phone. Me and my sister paid 2.5k worth of 100 peso bills. What made the experience hilarious was that it was a bit warm on the top floor of Farmers and my sister made a fan of the bills. She was helping me haggle like some rich matron flapping a bunch of crisp bills to her face. The middle-aged saleslady kept looking at her and was smiling. Maybe crispy bills brought a little luck? I wouldn’t know. :p

The phone itself sucked. The keys were too crisp and it took me an hour make it into something I could use. I took the advice of a friend to go back to the store and sell it. They slashed 500 pesos off of the price. (the cheaters… Wasn’t it illegal to have a no return no exchange policy?) I gave up and had them reduce the price for a 6300 Nokia Phone which was around 5k. I was happy with the upgrade and I considered it my basic phone. Although it was a bit of a rip-off because the micro SD card didn’t work, I don’t really mind. It will be my basic phone I guess as nobody really sends messages to my sun sim anymore save for one person. (himitsu-desu!)

I opened up a checking account with BPI. I turned over my personal stash of 10 peso coins worth 4.5k. I took a picture of it but my cable isn’t cooperating lately so you’ll just have to wait and see how 4.5k worth of 10 peso coins looks like. It was a minimum of 10,200 pesos with the 200 pesos as the checkbook fee. Heavy as hell I tell you. Two weeks later; I have 500 pesos worth of 10 peso coins again. Hyuk hyuk. Happy hoarding. :p

I watched Transformers 2 finally. The movie was pure eye-candy and it did nothing for the old hasbro cartoon canon but I still enjoyed it nonetheless. The two huckleberry redneck autobots were funny as hell. (i love rednecks, don’t you?) Jetfire was reduced to an old and rotting SR-71 Blackbird. I thought he would look cool or something but he was an old geezer in the film. Still nostalgic I guess… the magic of names and wondering how they would look in the film was enough to keep me interested. The best part of the film was the fight scene of optimus versus Starscream and Megatron and one other decepticon. Cool as hell. I even wondered if Robot Jox was as cool. (memories of some movies are still overly exagerrated especially if you haven’t seen the film again, believe me.) Optimus towards the end of the film suddenly looked like the GP02A Gundam when he absorbed Jetfire’s parts. Awesome, a little bulky and still cool to boot.

I am suddenly wondering why I crammed all of these in one article. They all suddenly looked clunky and disorganized to me.

That’s me for ya.

:p I’ll post the pictures later on. (And all the other pics I promised various people that I would print/scan/post.)

Life is beautiful.

Thoughts

aoiyeux — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 22:05:37 +0000

I wish i could see the sun disappear in to the ocean.
It’s been years since I last smelled the salty sea.
It’s been months since I’ve seen a clear sky of stars.
I may have been spending my days waiting
for the Moon, ever since I let go of that Sun.
Goodbye, beautiful you are, as you fade…
The moon is not the one that does the chasing,
as it surrounds itself with stars.

I used to feel like I didn’t have the courage to charge head-first in to something risky. Let alone for things outside the world I’m comfortable with. During the past few weeks, I have found solace in the comfort of friends and family. I have ‘met’ friends I have known for quite awhile now but have never seen their faces. I have found that the important things in life for me have been neglected for so long.

The self can be selfless sometimes… that is the unhealthy part of relationships. You give and you give and you give some more. You let go of things that have been with you for so long just to avoid an argument. It left me empty and alone, but it gave me the chance to start over.

I found myself talking to a mirror and I realized that it is finally time to move on. Life is beautiful. It used to be like the sky. I know it’s there and it’s beautiful but I never gave myself the chance to step out and enjoy it. Not this time. I’m taking my life back and I am no longer afraid to take risks.

The past may have done a good number on me and it had instilled a deep fear on things unknown. Everything has risks involved. You have the risk of betrayal from new friends. YOu have the risk of failure from new business ventures.

I will begin my journey now. Headlong, in a world of calculated risks and lesser evils. I am no longer put off by the thought that things will be hard… or will take too long. I can wait, but it will not stand in the way of my happiness.

I read the other entries here and it really made me think:

Life really is beautiful. Keep moving.

Good Bye… Starbucks. Not.

aoiyeux — Fri, 12 Jun 2009 19:12:45 +0000

I have recently discovered that I am Lactose Intolerant. Being a fan of their Frappucino and their coffee for years, the recent turn of events has been a painful blow to me. I still however, indulge in it anyway despite the rants and ramblings of my uncooperative stomach. Either that or I go for a plain Americano instead.

Or.

I drink some more. I get really bad diarrhea attacks and I have lost a few pounds because of this. I might be able to actually use this to my advantage since most weight-loss pills practically do the same and I enjoy Starbucks immensely. I will post another article about it if I am successful. I am currently at 182 lbs.

This might just be the news all those overweight lactose intolerant people like me are waiting for.

Lose weight, enjoy a frapuccino!